AlliedModders

AlliedModders (https://forums.alliedmods.net/index.php)
-   Off-Topic (https://forums.alliedmods.net/forumdisplay.php?f=15)
-   -   Confession/Clean Slate (https://forums.alliedmods.net/showthread.php?t=68789)

Dizzy 03-22-2008 16:37

Confession/Clean Slate
 
Good Afternoon Allied Modders,

I have a confession as of to my pinpoint location thread and basically an apology towards everyone on this forum board. During my extreme immature age I have been one who looked up to ones such as BAILOPAN, Freecode, JGHG, bmann_420, Twilight, and PM. I would try to be someone who contributed as much as they did and in doing so came across as a very irritating member to this forum board since 2004. I would have huge idle periods where my plugins would go unsupported for months, even seasons. I would jump back, in and out, everyone once and a while if I had a question, which is why I have random questions throughout the Off Topic/General Chat section. Questions about how to find someone's exact location through IP, HTML questions, Apache Server questions, and the list goes on. The pinpoint location thread about me getting harassed by someone was a complete hoax and I am sorry for lying to the hundreds of thousands on this forum. I just wanted to gain the knowledge of knowing how to find someone's location through IP.

I am the kind of guy who loves to help out the community and I don't want money in exchange for it... I just want the "Oh my god! Thank you soo much!" or the "Pat on the back" or the "I LOVE YOU!!! THANKS!" from someone. I feel really bad when I get the "idiot" or the "why the help would you post that?" or the "stfu" or the "RTFM!!! NOOB!" So in the past I would try to make quick rebounds to redem myself. They almost all failed.

I have tried scripting, using other's scripts as templates and just modifying them to make them do something slightly different and then get mad when it isn't accepted. I am a Counter-Strike player. I love providing to the community. I made a dedicated server I would run off my personal computer just so people could play. I tried to make plugins to make the server more of an attraction (as you can see through my Purchase Mod). I would always ask people for help one certain portions of my script, never release it and strip credit.

I plan on trying to make finals for all my current plugins that are still Approved and try to repair my Unapproved plugins. I want to clean up the mess I have created here.

I would always wonder why I got such little respect of this site, but I now see why. I have been a shady user on this forum and am sorry for this.

I give everyone on this forum, especially ones I've had attitude towards, for your forgiveness in my 4 years idle, and not idle in this community.

I use to be a bit OCD which is why, in previous posts, I Would Talk Like This And All My Letters We Upper Case. I know how it was extremely irritating to read and I no longer do this. I know I have a few things here and there that I do that are extremely annoying, but I want to start over and I can't do that without respect so I need to first ask you for forgiveness and I swear to always search here, and Google before asking a stupid question on this forum.

I would post something that was easy to answer (I realized this after it was answered) and wonder why I don't even get views to my thread. I know now that it was because I lacked respect and that my karma really shouldn't be Good. It honestly should be Terrible... I don't deserve respect for the ways I have acted in this community.

I'm sorry to everyone on this forum and hope you can find it in your heart to understand why I acted the way I did in the past and accept my apology.

Sincerely, Dizzy

Checkmarks 03-22-2008 16:54

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
idk you, but uh.. hello :)

fxfighter 03-22-2008 17:24

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
i would give you a hug if i wasn't a dude:cry:

bmann_420 03-22-2008 19:25

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
Wow

Well Dizzy for one, I appreciate that very much. And for two, I think your in the same boat as many people here, you just spilled the beans :D And I think everybody here, who has been here for years that is, we all see the changes in their/our maturity as time goes by, just as in life. Since a lot of people who are young try and make servers, t hen get into it more in depth and start scripting, when their young and assholish or dont think before they post, as Rukia happily goes by. Its what you say in your posts that people judge you by, and if you worry about that, then thats just the way it is. You are who you are, and you mature, Id say just be yourself and if your an ass, your an ass. If your not, then thats even better. I think I have gotten to the point of rambling, so theirs my 10 cents. (In other words, I wouldnt worry about it too much :up:)

[Ao1]Hero 03-22-2008 20:14

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by bmann_420 (Post 600432)
Wow

Well Dizzy for one, I appreciate that very much. And for two, I think your in the same boat as many people here, you just spilled the beans :D And I think everybody here, who has been here for years that is, we all see the changes in their/our maturity as time goes by, just as in life. Since a lot of people who are young try and make servers, t hen get into it more in depth and start scripting, when their young and assholish or dont think before they post, as Rukia happily goes by. Its what you say in your posts that people judge you by, and if you worry about that, then thats just the way it is. You are who you are, and you mature, Id say just be yourself and if your an ass, your an ass. If your not, then thats even better. I think I have gotten to the point of rambling, so theirs my 10 cents. (In other words, I wouldnt worry about it too much :up:)

He's right I'm only 14 and last year I tried to make a server and that's how I got into scripting :)
But I also don't know you, but it's nice you confessed.
-#hero

Dizzy 03-22-2008 21:45

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
Thank you everyone.. I'm glad you understand how I started at age 12 on this site, because I'm 16 now... I just wanted to be cool and know how to script. I get frustrated and through Scripting Help bum code of people and call it my own.

I read my old post called "A Simple Tutorial" where I try to explain code to anyone who views it. I look at my font that reads.

"This Is A Short Tutorial For My Plugin Loaner" (My isn't underlined, but I feel I need to emphasize it because it isn't mine. It's everyone who helped me with its.

It's ridculous, one, how man errors are in it and two how, being a newbie, I try and teach other people.

I just want to help people, and through that aggravate the more experienced. It's also the fact that I like having my name on things and like taking credit, which is such a terrible quality to possess.

Thank you for the replys guys, and sorry.

[Ao1]Hero 03-22-2008 22:13

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
Everyone likes taking credit and being accepted and known ;)
Thank god I didn't join two years ago when I was 12 I was a freak lolol

bmann_420 03-22-2008 22:17

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
And the more you worry about what people think of you, the less of you, you become.

Your Fine Dizzy :D

Dizzy 03-22-2008 22:30

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
No, it's wrong, because when I came back to see my Ultimate Sounds plugin moved, shut down, and fix, I felt terrible. I felt like I let down my script users, but honestly what it was, is that I shouldn't have taken the wheel on that script because when they asked for new sounds, I don't know how to do that! I barely knew how to port it. Honestly, I shouldn't have done that, but here I am visiting every once and a while and being scared to look at the posts because I didn't know how to fix it.

I should learn the syntax better, learn the natives, and get better at it.

The same thing happened to me with HTML and CSS.

I knew things here and there, but I couldn't use notepad. I was reliant on Microsoft Frontpage.

I used w3schools and I learned the syntax of HTML and CSS better and properly. Now I can make a site in notepad and use trial and error to get it perfect.

I shouldn't have released my first plugin without first reading the entire tutorial made by Bailopan.

After my 2nd plugin, I realized a tutorial existed... Honestly, I guessed at everything and I knew how to port, because all you do is change a few values here and there to make it match up with amxmodx and change the includes...

I'm glad it was taken out of my hands, and honestly shouldn't get any credit for the port, because I just aggravated people with a plugin that didn't work!

This is why I am frustrated with my immature self and I just get yelled at on this site...

Nobody likes me, and everytime I make a post I feel like I risk the chance of getting yelled at, called a noob, or ban!

I feel like this site is only for people who know there stuff and that I shouldn't have even registered.

Sometimes I feel that I should just make a new user and come back as a newb, learn the syntax and gain positive respect from everyone on the site.

:-\.

[Ao1]Hero 03-22-2008 22:37

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
When I joined a few days ago, I had literally never seen a CS script.
You're not a nub. In comparison to me, you're scripting god. But that doesn't mean you don't deserve to learn and be respected. Now that you got all this off your shoulders, you can start coming here again with the respect we all should get.

Dizzy 03-22-2008 22:44

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
Thanks :)

bmann_420 03-22-2008 23:02

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
Seriously, it could be way worse man. Your takin it a lil hard.... I wouldnt worry to much about it, your still here arnt you? The more you think about the BS you have done, the more shitty you feel, and from what I have gained is that is not such a good thing. Keep looking foreward and dont think about that, whats done is done, over. Now you move ahead. Mmmkay Your a cool guy, dont worry. lol :up:

allenwr 03-22-2008 23:09

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
This is a scary thought, I feel inspired to be nice/pleasant/helpful again.

Thanks for this topic.

Dizzy 03-22-2008 23:21

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
=/ I guess, I just hate looking at the karma I have, the descriptions of, "idiot" or "It's Really Irritating When You Talk Like This!" or "stfu, I was going to shutdown that topic"

Thanks guys, and your welcome for the topic.

[Ao1]Hero 03-22-2008 23:36

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
just forget about karma ;)
besides, yours is "Good" - most people would really crave that :)

drumzplaya13 03-23-2008 04:15

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
ok i think you get it, we get it. enough lol. dont have to keep posting on it... we forgive you even though i have no clue who you are. you seem great. everyone is fine with everything! yay for us! ok. lock? :]

Lord_Destros 03-24-2008 17:05

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
Oh my god! Thank you soo much!

Quote:

Originally Posted by bmann_420 (Post 600432)
...we all see the changes in their/our maturity as time goes by, just as in life....

Agreed. I can truly see how I have immatured over the years I've been here.

Dizzy 03-24-2008 19:11

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by Lord_Destros (Post 601436)
Agreed. I can truly see how I have immatured over the years I've been here.

Lmfao

Twilight Suzuka 03-25-2008 03:36

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
First: My name is Suzuka. Twilight is a rank, not a name. S-u-z-u-k-a.
Second: Thank you for the mentioning. Makes me feel loved.
Third: Hello PM

Lord_Destros 03-25-2008 16:26

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by Dizzy
...lying to the hundreds of thousands on this forum

That statement made me realize there are 3,058 AlliedModder registerred members o.O.

Hello PM.

TheNewt 03-25-2008 22:11

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
Suzuka, you got a link in your title...

Hi PM!

Lord_Destros 03-26-2008 01:12

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
ORLY?

slmclarengt 03-26-2008 02:01

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
I agree completely with bmann and although I personally do not know you, I know the feeling that you mention. I have been here since 2004 as well and am definitely guilty of inactivity (from CS as a whole, moving onto TF2 :-)).

Getting IPs is one first stage one goes through to think they can bully the person who bothered them :-) but it's better if you can stop after that because later stages can have some real trouble associated with them.

To reiterate, say what you think not what others want you to say, do what you want not what you think others want to do and frankly, be whoever you want to be without regard to how others perceive you because the most important thing one can do in life is probably self-acceptance and confidence. After that, respect comes.

Regards,

Slmclarengt

TheNewt 03-26-2008 09:23

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by slmclarengt (Post 602116)
To reiterate, say what you think not what others TheNewt want you to say, do what you want not what you think others want to do what TheNewt commands and frankly, TheNewt rocks. be whoever you want to be without regard to how others perceive you because the most important thing one can do in life is probably self-acceptance and confidence. After that, respect comes.

Regards,

Slmclarengt

QFT :wink:

Lord_Destros 03-26-2008 16:21

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by TheNewt
To reiterate, say what you think not what others TheNewt want you to say, do what you want not what you think others want to do what TheNewt commands and frankly, TheNewt rocks is not make of BBQ Sauce. be whoever you want to be without regard to how others perceive you because the most important thing one can do in life is probably self-acceptance and confidence. After that, respect self-humiliation self-degradation comes.

Regards,

Slmclarengt

P.S. Get TheNewt to give Lord_Destros his potatos.
P.P.S Hello PM.


TheNewt 03-26-2008 19:12

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by Lord_Destros (Post 602382)
Quote:

Originally Posted by TheNewt (Post 602199)
Quote:

Originally Posted by slmclarengt (Post 602116)
To reiterate, say what you think not what others TheNewt want you to say, do what you want not what you think others want to do what TheNewt commands and frankly, TheNewt rocks is not make of BBQ Sauce Sawce. be whoever you want to be without regard to how others perceive you because the most important thing one can do in life is probably self-acceptance and confidence. After that, respect self-humiliation self-degradation comes.

Regards,

Slmclarengt

P.S. Get TheNewt to give Lord_Destros his potatos. NEVAR!
P.P.S Hello PM.
P.S.S.S Fixed
P.S.S.S.S Hello, Hawk. We meet again.




hoboman 03-26-2008 19:18

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by TheNewt
Quote:

Originally Posted by Lord_Destros
Quote:

Originally Posted by TheNewt
Quote:

Originally Posted by slmclarengt
To reiterate, say what you think not what others TheNewt want you to say, do what you want not what you think others want to do what TheNewt commands and frankly, TheNewt rocks is not make of BBQ Sauce Sawce. be whoever you want to be without regard to how others perceive you because the most important thing one can do in life is probably self-acceptance and confidence. After that, respect self-humiliation self-degradation comes.

Regards,

Slmclarengt

P.S. Get TheNewt to give Lord_Destros his potatos.
P.P.S Hello PM.
P.S.S.S Fixed




writing that out was so not worth it

TheNewt 03-26-2008 19:54

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
Hoboman you failed us
Quote:

Originally Posted by TheNewt (Post 602475)
Quote:

Originally Posted by Lord_Destros (Post 602382)
Quote:

Originally Posted by TheNewt (Post 602199)
Quote:

Originally Posted by slmclarengt (Post 602116)
To reiterate, say what TheNewt want you to say, do what TheNewt commands and frankly, TheNewt is not make of BBQ Sawce. After that, self-humiliation self-degradation comes.

Regards,

Slmclarengt

P.S. Get TheNewt to give Lord_Destros his potatos. NEVAR!
P.P.S Hello PM.
P.S.S.S Fixed
P.S.S.S.S Hello, Hawk. We meet again.
P.S.P.S.S.P Cleaned it up.





slmclarengt 03-26-2008 20:37

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by TheNewt (Post 602494)
Hoboman you failed us

There is a reason he's a "Hobo Man"...

In other news, my post was butchered so heavily, I think it can be analogized to a chicken being cut into enough pieces to feed a starving million man army...

But if that's what's fun, I don't really care.

Slmclarengt

Lord_Destros 03-27-2008 02:54

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by TheNewt
Hoboman you failed us


TheNewt 03-27-2008 13:46

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by Lord_Destros (Post 602590)
Quote:

Originally Posted by TheNewt (Post 602494)
BLAH


I'm done, this isn't all that fun anymore :(

Da_sk8rboy 03-27-2008 15:54

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
Quote:

I'm sorry to everyone on this forum and hope you can find it in your heart to understand why I acted the way I did in the past and accept my apology.
It's just an internet community. Don't get caught up in pointless drama.

Lord_Destros 03-27-2008 16:38

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by TheNewt
Quote:

Originally Posted by Lord_Destros
Quote:

Originally Posted by TheNewt
You win...



Yayz

Alka 03-27-2008 17:09

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by Lord_Destros (Post 602901)
Yayz


TheNewt 03-27-2008 18:31

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by Lord_Destros
Quote:

Originally Posted by Lord_Newt
Quote:

Originally Posted by Lord_Destros
Quote:

Originally Posted by Lord_Newt
You I win!!!...




Quote:

Originally Posted by Alka
Quote:

Originally Posted by The_Destros
Yayz for Lord_Newt


Fixed and... fixed. :wink:
Enjoy!

Alka 03-27-2008 18:34

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by TheNewt (Post 602958)
Fixed and... fixed screwed up. :wink:
Enjoy!


TheNewt 03-27-2008 18:39

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by Alka (Post 602961)
Quote:

Originally Posted by TheNewt (Post 602958)
Fixed and... fixed. screwed up. :wink:
Enjoy!
P.S. Fixed again



Lord_Destros 03-28-2008 03:13

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by TheNewt
[Other stuff] I do...hate sawce. [Other stuff]

THAT IS TREASON!

Alka 03-28-2008 05:03

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by Lord_Destros (Post 603132)
THAT IS NOT TREASON!


Twilight Suzuka 03-28-2008 07:42

Re: Confession/Clean Slate
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by Da_sk8rboy (Post 602873)
It's just an internet community. Don't get caught up in pointless drama.

THE INTERNET IS SERIOUS BUSINESS


All times are GMT -4. The time now is 02:09.

Powered by vBulletin®
Copyright ©2000 - 2024, vBulletin Solutions, Inc.